20 April, 2007
a hypocrite, yes, that's what i am. the gradual erosion of humanity, of compassion, of understanding. what we have been taught; to be kind and serve others, what have those amount to?! ten years of such well round education down the drain, because of mere irritation and attitudes? this reprimand unheeded by myself. ah! what has the world come to?! of others you critise, but have you taken a good look at yourself?! have you done any reflection and seen all those bad qualities clearly portrayed in your every action, every move? every spiteful word, every well veiled jibe accumulates and projects an extremely negation image of you. really, you are the lowest of the low, the worst of the bastards. disgusted and horrified i am by my own actions. lessons i need on how to care, understand, shut up, be considerate, open, humble, etc. ah val! you suck. you the scum of the very worst.
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im sorry. i really am. i apologize for my insensitivity, my moronic behavior, my shitass attitude, my bloody big ego, my bitchy nature, my mouth, my words, my anger, my irritation, my fear, my sadness, my hypocritical ways. damn it. i hate myself for all the woes i brought upon your head, for the sorrow and abject misery that my presence have incurred. yes, i admit, im one of the biggest bitches on this planet, the vermin of the world. shit. of my apologies i hope you'll accept. you were all right. i was wrong, and you were right. my case driven to the ground, and i stand in surrender. of my last vestiges of pride you can tear and trample on. for i am not worthy of your sympathies. my sincere apologise, finite and more.
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Valerie's sorry for being incompetent, insensitive, sarcastic, moronic, egoistic, hypocritical and basically for being the scum and vermin of the world. Sorry.
applicable to everyone i've wronged. my defeat, my surrender.
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ah! a complete bastard and bitch i have been.
___10:27 p.m.___
